Humans keep make me feel useless and unwanted, ignored.

No matter what i do.. no matter how sincerely trying to help others when i feel that they need it, they never need it from me. Always they only see the work of other people, while i just remain invisible to everyone. i'm even do something to make you feel better? it seems like actually no.

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i tried my best to be better version of me through years, but thing just staying same.

No one want to be my friend for real.

No one ever loves me if it wasn't about abuse my kindness and affection towards them.

why i'm even in this world? i never find my place here.

i'm happy that you finally can be better. But sometimes i just notice absolutely no value from my presence no matter what situation. Everything will be exactly the same, even if i don't exist at all. And it will always haunt me.

i can left my past behind, i can think that i become much better, but i still same cursed idiot who think that he really helps anyone while when the truth is that no one even need it from me.

i don't even know if i'll be fine later or going down again. But what i get today is that i really just need to stop trying. Too bad i can't.

i hate to complain in public, i hate to draw attention to myself, but there are times when i just can't keep it to myself anymore. But at the same time, i understand that everyone will ignore it anyway, so what's the difference.