Ooookay, i'm not very active here yet... really not much.

I guess, in addition to irl problems due to which i don’t always have the strength to post even where i'm more active, i just don’t want to deal with this old cursed nickname i registered with. And until i can get myself the opportunity to change it, i'm unlikely to be here often.

I'll leave links in my profile where my art can be found (my Twitter profile is currently closed for personal reasons), if anyone needs this at all. And maybe later, if i don’t forget and find the energy, i’ll post the latest drawings here too.

Welp i may hope i'm back to be at least somehow active here, even though i'm still can't draw often.. anyway, i'm not dead for now.

Humans keep make me feel useless and unwanted, ignored.

No matter what i do.. no matter how sincerely trying to help others when i feel that they need it, they never need it from me. Always they only see the work of other people, while i just remain invisible to everyone. i'm even do something to make you feel better? it seems like actually no.

...

i tried my best to be better version of me through years, but thing just staying same.

No one want to be my friend for real.

No one ever loves me if it wasn't about abuse my kindness and affection towards them.

why i'm even in this world? i never find my place here.

i'm happy that you finally can be better. But sometimes i just notice absolutely no value from my presence no matter what situation. Everything will be exactly the same, even if i don't exist at all. And it will always haunt me.

i can left my past behind, i can think that i become much better, but i still same cursed idiot who think that he really helps anyone while when the truth is that no one even need it from me.

i don't even know if i'll be fine later or going down again. But what i get today is that i really just need to stop trying. Too bad i can't.

i hate to complain in public, i hate to draw attention to myself, but there are times when i just can't keep it to myself anymore. But at the same time, i understand that everyone will ignore it anyway, so what's the difference.

Life is Corruption Reimagined and i'm BF in it.

Okay i'm still alive somehow god only know for how long, let's check on that. Surviving winter in a country house which not supposed for wintering without firewood is the last thing you wanna try (maybe). And also for some time NG just won't working for me, good thing i'm able to be here again, so i keep posting art here again. c:

Eeeyyy, i just done week 7 at hard with one hand (bc it's a lot easier for me keep playing with one hand at any direction buttons than retrain to play with both).

I remember times when i was sure that i never beat any week at hard by this method... 

For last years i finally feel proud and pleased with myself. Not for long, but still at least something positive in my existence |D

So i tried to roleplay again with some random ppl at social network after a while, as an one of attempts to fight my social phobia. And as result my OC was called Mary Sue just for... appearance. Not abilities, not weaknesses, since there weren't any questions about it. Literally all what they asked is name, trial rp post, appearance and short bio.

yn, if you don't want me in your rp then just say that straight, no need to insult my character, she already depressed enough.